If you really knew me, you'd know I'm as shy as the sun on a cold day.
That I love chill music. The kind that puts you in some place between the sun and earth's orbit.

You would know that I'm probably shaking right now.
(If this text is behind me)
But I'm not scared. I don't know why I'm shaking.

I like chick flicks, and I'm not sorry.

You would know that I'm not afraid of the "hello's" rather the words after.
My mind goes blank.

You would know that I prefer the dark. Things are more real in there.
That I love inspiration, in all forms.

You would know that I love you guys.
I love the girl with the contagious laugh in the back corner.
I love the brown spot of comedy in the front.
I love the beautiful women that flesh out "Paris"
I love the big man that no one will ever forget.

Groups

I wish everyone could love everyone. Cliche sounding right?
But I do. High school has all these groups ie, hipsters, jocks, etc.
But I love them all. Until the individual person proves to me that they don't deserve love, at the moment I guess.

I'm your average high school student. Wake up at 7ish, get home at 230...ish. Work till 5.
But I just got my license and credit card stolen.
The cops have been after me for purchasing and importing illegal drugs across the boarder.
I am currently in Missouri sleeping in a barn house.
Phone is Dead.
No contact with any family or friends.
I've also got several drug lords tailing me with assassins.
No money.
No I.D.
I can only hitch hike my way through the country.
I salvage scraps of food from back alley restaurants.
My face is on every telephone pole in the major cities.
For importing drugs?
No.
40 people have been murdered under my name.

Blogging is hard lately. Why?

She said

"I'm happy", she said.

Choice

I want to go with you.

My favorite movie?

That's hard, but I'll choose ONE of my favorite movies. The Truman Show is an all time classic for me. I love 80's and 90's films and the styles back then. I love Jim Carrey. I love the uniqueness of the movie. So creative and amazing. I wish more movies were like that these days instead of all about sex and stuff. Oh well....

Time

Time is never on our side
When we experience happiness it speeds up
When we experience sadness it slows down
If love enters our life it burns to the ground because of the season
As pain touches our hearts we lock it in a safe
Why?
The Time of our lives just passed
But Time tries to make up for it's pessimism
Perpetual like the Sun it's always giving you more of itself

Hey. You should check these out. :D

http://letsplayrockpaperscissors.blogspot.com/2012/03/every-little-one.html
http://baronvonbullshit-ridesagain.blogspot.com/2012/03/colorful-earth.html
http://amomentofbeauty.blogspot.com/2012/03/words.html

Change

I was listening to the song, We Never Change Do We, by Coldplay. It made me think a lot about if people really do change. I'm not talking about changing good or bad, but in personality, but does personality have to involve good or bad? Or is a personality just a personality?
Do we ever change? Or just learn how to react in certain situations or to certain people? Sorry if this doesn't make sense to anybody....

Nude

Don't Get Any Big Ideas
They're Not Gonna Happen

You Paint Yourself White
And Fill Up With Noise
But There'll Be Something Missing

Now That You've Found It, It's Gone
Now That You Feel It, You Don't
You've Gone Off The Rails

So Don't Get Any Big Ideas
They're Not Gonna Happen

You'll Go To Hell For What Your Dirty Mind Is Thinking


I love the line "You Paint Yourself White, And Fill Up With Noise" I think It's like sometimes we make it so no one hears us and perhaps we're more of a background noise. (white noise)
Also the line "Now that you feel it, You don't." When we get something, it doesn't matter if it's good or great, we often take it for granted and sort of become numb to the awesomeness of it. It's sad, but true. Radiohead just makes amazing music and lyrics.

The fickle future

I wish 5 months back from this day could be 3 years in the future.

I wish time could agree more with our speed.

I wish time went as fast as looking back at it.

I wish we were in the future.< ==============

I'm in the future                                                     ||

Strange.                                                                ||

Maybe 3 years will be here like that, right there, THAT wish.

Maybe. The future is so fickle.

Maybe we can change that.

                                                           Maybe

Brushstroke

Walking through this city

No recollection of the past

No control over the future, But we are in control

We know what to do.

But the artist is in control. She is has reign over my desires

She will paint the next cobblestone

Maybe that's why I am moving so slowly

Each stone is different,  unique, complex

I'm glad there is no past in this city.

Outside of here there are barbed wire fences. They chain us from movement.

This city has no chains. We only move a little slower. More relaxed.

Night will awaken the city. Day dissolves her. The city. Day dissolved my desire.

And I could almost touch it.

Betos

I discovered the other day that you can deep fry burritos at Betos.
Though I nearly died from 3 clogged arteries and lack of oxygen to my brain and heart I recommend everyone try it.

Courage

Opportunities will always be here.

Courage will not.

Courage is a choice, opportunities exist.

We exist.

We have choice.

Opportunities mixed with Courage = Success

Success is a choice.

Fear exists.

But only to those that let it.

That choose it.

We exist because of an opportunity taken by someone.

Someone with Courage, someone with success.

We exist. 

We are success.

Christmas Morning?

I know no one really cares... but I do. I'm freakin excited for Mass Effect 3 to come out next week. #asgoodaschristmasmorning

Life and Death

Death has been a big thought in my head lately. With all that's been going on around it makes me think. It's so strange that these people CHOSE to end their life. Most of the time isn't it God that decides? But why does God decide to take other peoples lives. God's choice in taking someones life, could result in another person choosing to take their own. So why God? Didn't you know this would happen? Don't you know all things? Are we just waiting to die? Or trying to live? I'm not angry at You. Only confused. Shed some light? This place could use some light.

Fears

I fear that trial. The one you know is coming. Because your life is completely fine compared to the people around you. And you know that God is ready to punch you with something, but you have no idea what it will be. I don't know if any of you will get this, but it's just something I fear. I fear the past that doesn't matter to the future. I fear sharks. I fear the red and blue lights flashing in your rear view mirror. I fear knowing people for who they are. I fear my friends more than my enemies. I fear the friends that become my enemies. I fear I will make those enemies. Did I make these enemies?

Food

Have you ever been eating a really good plate of food?


Then someone takes a big shit on it?

No this isn't real. It's a really good analogy.