Inverted flight

My eyes have swollen from this viral infection. Waist deep in my own recollection. 

Recalling the times when my heart took a turn. I thought it would stop at 180 degrees, but it kept on twirling until it made a complete 360. 

Spiraling downward like a bird shot from the sky. I was a great bird. Equal with the clouds. Nothing to keep the sun from touching my back. Now my spine has gone cold. Only reflected light touches me. My eyes can no longer see. Where am I?