If you really knew me, you'd know I'm as shy as the sun on a cold day.
That I love chill music. The kind that puts you in some place between the sun and earth's orbit.

You would know that I'm probably shaking right now.
(If this text is behind me)
But I'm not scared. I don't know why I'm shaking.

I like chick flicks, and I'm not sorry.

You would know that I'm not afraid of the "hello's" rather the words after.
My mind goes blank.

You would know that I prefer the dark. Things are more real in there.
That I love inspiration, in all forms.

You would know that I love you guys.
I love the girl with the contagious laugh in the back corner.
I love the brown spot of comedy in the front.
I love the beautiful women that flesh out "Paris"
I love the big man that no one will ever forget.

Groups

I wish everyone could love everyone. Cliche sounding right?
But I do. High school has all these groups ie, hipsters, jocks, etc.
But I love them all. Until the individual person proves to me that they don't deserve love, at the moment I guess.

I'm your average high school student. Wake up at 7ish, get home at 230...ish. Work till 5.
But I just got my license and credit card stolen.
The cops have been after me for purchasing and importing illegal drugs across the boarder.
I am currently in Missouri sleeping in a barn house.
Phone is Dead.
No contact with any family or friends.
I've also got several drug lords tailing me with assassins.
No money.
No I.D.
I can only hitch hike my way through the country.
I salvage scraps of food from back alley restaurants.
My face is on every telephone pole in the major cities.
For importing drugs?
No.
40 people have been murdered under my name.

Blogging is hard lately. Why?

She said

"I'm happy", she said.

Choice

I want to go with you.

My favorite movie?

That's hard, but I'll choose ONE of my favorite movies. The Truman Show is an all time classic for me. I love 80's and 90's films and the styles back then. I love Jim Carrey. I love the uniqueness of the movie. So creative and amazing. I wish more movies were like that these days instead of all about sex and stuff. Oh well....

Time

Time is never on our side
When we experience happiness it speeds up
When we experience sadness it slows down
If love enters our life it burns to the ground because of the season
As pain touches our hearts we lock it in a safe
Why?
The Time of our lives just passed
But Time tries to make up for it's pessimism
Perpetual like the Sun it's always giving you more of itself

Hey. You should check these out. :D

http://letsplayrockpaperscissors.blogspot.com/2012/03/every-little-one.html
http://baronvonbullshit-ridesagain.blogspot.com/2012/03/colorful-earth.html
http://amomentofbeauty.blogspot.com/2012/03/words.html

Change

I was listening to the song, We Never Change Do We, by Coldplay. It made me think a lot about if people really do change. I'm not talking about changing good or bad, but in personality, but does personality have to involve good or bad? Or is a personality just a personality?
Do we ever change? Or just learn how to react in certain situations or to certain people? Sorry if this doesn't make sense to anybody....

Nude

Don't Get Any Big Ideas
They're Not Gonna Happen

You Paint Yourself White
And Fill Up With Noise
But There'll Be Something Missing

Now That You've Found It, It's Gone
Now That You Feel It, You Don't
You've Gone Off The Rails

So Don't Get Any Big Ideas
They're Not Gonna Happen

You'll Go To Hell For What Your Dirty Mind Is Thinking


I love the line "You Paint Yourself White, And Fill Up With Noise" I think It's like sometimes we make it so no one hears us and perhaps we're more of a background noise. (white noise)
Also the line "Now that you feel it, You don't." When we get something, it doesn't matter if it's good or great, we often take it for granted and sort of become numb to the awesomeness of it. It's sad, but true. Radiohead just makes amazing music and lyrics.

The fickle future

I wish 5 months back from this day could be 3 years in the future.

I wish time could agree more with our speed.

I wish time went as fast as looking back at it.

I wish we were in the future.< ==============

I'm in the future                                                     ||

Strange.                                                                ||

Maybe 3 years will be here like that, right there, THAT wish.

Maybe. The future is so fickle.

Maybe we can change that.

                                                           Maybe

Brushstroke

Walking through this city

No recollection of the past

No control over the future, But we are in control

We know what to do.

But the artist is in control. She is has reign over my desires

She will paint the next cobblestone

Maybe that's why I am moving so slowly

Each stone is different,  unique, complex

I'm glad there is no past in this city.

Outside of here there are barbed wire fences. They chain us from movement.

This city has no chains. We only move a little slower. More relaxed.

Night will awaken the city. Day dissolves her. The city. Day dissolved my desire.

And I could almost touch it.

Betos

I discovered the other day that you can deep fry burritos at Betos.
Though I nearly died from 3 clogged arteries and lack of oxygen to my brain and heart I recommend everyone try it.

Courage

Opportunities will always be here.

Courage will not.

Courage is a choice, opportunities exist.

We exist.

We have choice.

Opportunities mixed with Courage = Success

Success is a choice.

Fear exists.

But only to those that let it.

That choose it.

We exist because of an opportunity taken by someone.

Someone with Courage, someone with success.

We exist. 

We are success.

Christmas Morning?

I know no one really cares... but I do. I'm freakin excited for Mass Effect 3 to come out next week. #asgoodaschristmasmorning

Life and Death

Death has been a big thought in my head lately. With all that's been going on around it makes me think. It's so strange that these people CHOSE to end their life. Most of the time isn't it God that decides? But why does God decide to take other peoples lives. God's choice in taking someones life, could result in another person choosing to take their own. So why God? Didn't you know this would happen? Don't you know all things? Are we just waiting to die? Or trying to live? I'm not angry at You. Only confused. Shed some light? This place could use some light.

Fears

I fear that trial. The one you know is coming. Because your life is completely fine compared to the people around you. And you know that God is ready to punch you with something, but you have no idea what it will be. I don't know if any of you will get this, but it's just something I fear. I fear the past that doesn't matter to the future. I fear sharks. I fear the red and blue lights flashing in your rear view mirror. I fear knowing people for who they are. I fear my friends more than my enemies. I fear the friends that become my enemies. I fear I will make those enemies. Did I make these enemies?

Food

Have you ever been eating a really good plate of food?


Then someone takes a big shit on it?

No this isn't real. It's a really good analogy.

Inverted flight

My eyes have swollen from this viral infection. Waist deep in my own recollection. 

Recalling the times when my heart took a turn. I thought it would stop at 180 degrees, but it kept on twirling until it made a complete 360. 

Spiraling downward like a bird shot from the sky. I was a great bird. Equal with the clouds. Nothing to keep the sun from touching my back. Now my spine has gone cold. Only reflected light touches me. My eyes can no longer see. Where am I?

I thought about you

Back when I thought about you, you were so beautiful. My mind was occupied by your first impression. I've never seen a first impression executed so well. What is this? Who am I? A manager for Mcdonalds? Whoever I was, I was thinking about you. I was thinking about you like glue thinks about rubber, like rubber thinks about glue, I was thinking about you like you were the rubber and I was the glue and how my mind could never comprehend sticking with you. And I didn't. I never knew the 2nd impression of you. Who was this mystery? Who is this mystery? I'm still thinking about you. Time was slow. Slow with you. I'm thinking about you like concussions think about my head, get out of my head! I took a concussive blow to the head when I first thought of you. When I was thinking about you. My mind cannot create you. Who are you?

I wouldn't post this

I wouldn't post this if it wasn't worth watching. Then again, I don't know you. P.S. I know he is a nerd. And I love it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iCqwwTfXr1Q&feature=related

Silence

I've realized that all of us shy silent people are scared. Scared what people think of us, straight up! Why? Oh that's right, because we still have a class with them for 3 more months and what if everyone thinks we're freakin creepy? (Not saying we're creepy or what we are is....) What if... What if no one cared? Wait a minute. Wait a minute!!! Why should we care if those people who do care... care? We aren't going to be friends with them anyways. What if we did speak up?! Those people that we care, care... don't matter. What if we did speak up and those people that are more like us saw that? Or how about this? What if we never said a word for a 4 month class? What if because of that we lost a forever friend? I'm thinking us shy motha ****** (jk i don't swear) should speak up. And hey maybe we'll make a friend. Peace!

What is Love?

I can't say for everyone, but I could try and explain it for myself. I think in order for love to exist, happiness does too. It seems obvious right? But, people forget. I think people forget that love and happiness once existed, but they got sucked into a vortex. A vortex of hate. And I'm not talkin a big vortex. I'm talking about a pinhole of hate. Some people LOVE to focus on the HATE. They love seeing all the faults in somebody and never see the positive things about them. In order to love I believe you need to accept all those faults no matter the expanse of them. Of course if the faults overwhelm the positives, that specific person may need to change some things. But nobody's perfect. Well, almost -  moving on. I often hear people get really worked up about people that say they're in love, but are flat out infatuated, BUT, doesn't everyone get infatuated at the beginning of something or over someone? I think infatuation can bloom into love, but I think they're are different types of infatuation, I know, I know getting complicated enough. There is the premature infatuation and the sketchy... let me see if I can use the right word, Stimulated infatuation? Love seems to prove itself over time, at least that's what I believe. You're gonna hit rough spots, but after those rough spots can come the greatest, most love enhanced burn in yourself. Be patient. Love is patient.

Intro

I chose About Today, because of the song by The National over there ----------------------->
It plays at the end of the movie Warrior which is one of my favorite movies, very emotional ending. Anyways... I love GOOD music, if you like any Radiohead, you should let me know. I am kind of shy, but confident in myself. I like doing creative things. The cool me likes Basketball, The nerdy me likes Starcraft 2, Battlefield 3 and other activities that will make me a better person... When I get interested in something I can't stop wanting to learn more about it. I like playing music also. I like artistic things like Photography and Poetry. I want to see Seattle, and other interesting cities. That's kind of an outline of me, that I wouldn't normally say if my screen name was my name so... go figure.